LIVE EVERY MOMENT

For a really long time it was my motto to live each day like it was my last. I always planned to enjoy each expereince, savour every feeling. Imagine my dismay when i actually realised that its not essentially true that i do this. Somehow, i like to control every situation and everything that happens to me in my day-to-day life and if i dont gain control, you better get out of my way. A friend of mine was talking about how good it is when someone totally adores you and of course I agreed with her but i realised that we ought to have been talking about the other scenario - How good it would be to totally adore somebody. Truth be told, many people find it difficult to actually let go and love for the simple reason of loving. You know why? Yup, you guessed right. We must control everything.
What comes to my mind is that we have internalised