Its a public holiday and I've been home all day. I can proudly say that i have spent the whole day in front of the television, watching films and drifting in and out of sleep. The amazing thing crossed my mind today though. I thought to myself that i've actually matured. What i mean is that if this was some three or four years back, i would feel that i have wasted the whole day doing nothing. Amazingly though, i feel very fulfilled and relaxed.
What this brought to mind was how much we actually change over time and with certain experiences. I began to think about the many laws and rules that i used to live my life by and how gradually, they have become things that i would do without batting an eyelash. A ready example is all the guiding laws and priciples regarding my relationship with the opposite sex. I can attribute some of my very wierd decisions to the 'sex' talk with my mother. She practically made me believ that if you have one of the male species (apart from my brothers) as a friend, you automatically get preggers! Talk less of holding hands or sharing kisses! I wonder hwy they found it so difficult to elaborate these issues and put it in proper perspective. What this did to me however was that i swore off the opposite sex for such an eternity. I did not want to be the one who gets pregnant and pitied...whatever that means
We actually make certain laws about ourselves that do not always stem from us but from some half baked truths and misguided opinons of others. I think we should revel in life - we would actually live only once.
The amazing truth is that sometimes, these self placed restritions could hamper with our decision making processes. You begin to wonder if its actually your bias getting to you or if you are making a purely objective decision. For instance, i have always sworn off guys who had anything to do with any friend of mine. This decision was made for a couple of reasons: firstly, i could spoil the relationship between you and your friend, and secondly, why did he like her first and not me? Yup, you guessed right - a bruised ego and personality. The truth is that i feel like a beauty queen most times and i really cannot understand why some guy would pass over my charming personality, beauty, allure and 200% sex appeal for any other person! ( i have learnt to be my own cheerleader! try it too - it feels wonderful)
Truth be told, i realise that when issues like this crop up, a lady needs to be very rational. Be very sure that the sister/friend involve is totally over the guy involved - Make sure she's not faking that its alright. She should truly mean it. Also, make sure that no hanky pankies are involved. Let her know the true picture of you feelings for the guy and his feelings for you. Be sure not to discuss comparisms he made about the both of you - try to be as diplomatic as possible too - diplomacy has always won the day.With this, you must ensure that within yourself, this is not some sort of competition. Its not worth it swaying the boat of your friendship if you are not sure of the man involved. Re-evaluate your feeling for the guy and be sure that they are true. With this, you might be able to make a perfectly rational, unbiased and objective decision.
So, whatever reasons for our laws and guiding principles, we must be sure that they are ubiased and we are better, happier and ultimately satisfied people for it!



Live your lives in a way that would free your souls.

Later
Jay